I said I would continue that one post…and I’m not going to. Not right now anyway.
What I would like to do is open up a can of worms and share them with you right now. That is how perfectly human I am, and how God is blasting through that with His samurai sword of truth. I’m on that dang bicycle again, but I’m plummeting toward a barb wired fence that wants to decapitate me.
First. I have plans. You have plans too, but I have plans that are actually going to happen. My brain has worked through them, and they are pretty much good as done. I have a five year plan for after graduation to dodge the “work force” boomerang. Sure, it’s plausible. It involves God. It has a dash of danger and a sprinkling of adventure. It’s got about twelve pounds of awesome. All of this adding up to a delightful recipe of me pleasing me and doing what I want.
Second. I am surrounded by Christians. I live with them, go to class with some, interact daily with many. This is all good and fine. I have a great Christian force behind me. Do I feel like I’m being light in a really bright room? Yah, I’m like the extra light bulb. Or like I’m salt to an already terribly over-salted potato? Makes me gag.
Every(ish) morning I sit down with my oatmeal and coffee, and I start with the proverb of the day.
Proverbs 20:5 (Yesterday)- “A plan in the heart of a man is like deep water, But a man of understanding draws it out. “
Proverbs 19:21 (Day before yesterday)- “ Many are the plans in a man’s heart, But the counsel of the Lord, it will stand.”
(This morning) Proverbs 21:2- “Every man’s way is right in his own eyes, But the Lord weighs the heart.”
That word PLAN is just getting me good. MY five year PLAN. All of that. I made allowances like, “oh I’ll be ok if somehow I get in some sort of serious relationship” or “I’m fine with the different arrangement of the things I want to do. So long as they all happen still.” Who do I think I am? For reals though, who?
And I’ve got to be salt and light in this world. Not where there already IS salt and light but where it’s dark and bland. Jesus came and ate with the tax collectors and sinners. I’ve got to find our modern day tax collectors.
I’m taking steps in prayer and in actual steps to address both of these issues BUT it needs to be an inward heart change. A change of my mind set. Which actually kind of pertains to the previous post…hmmmmm. Unintentional. Very cool.
